Every Time I Remember

Every time I remember,
My heart shrivels to the size of a pea.

It’s hard to keep my breath held for long,
To sustain any tears

Did forgive, but never forgot,
These memories murder me

Wishing never bought me close enough,
To forgetting everything

Time hasn’t healed sufficient wounds,
To stop me from bleeding

Seasons passed by,
Still my clock stands motionless

Blinking at papers of sad poetries,
Hasn’t put words on my tongue

Love made me the mute, deaf, and blind,
Pain bought back my senses

The wind hasn’t ragged towards me,
To blow my thoughts away

Dreaming never bought me close enough,
To believing in my own words

Believing in this omniscient God,
Never made me fully understand

Not enough battles have been won in my head,
To declare a victory

Distance stretched feelings across oceans,
Never enough to lose control

Agony hasn’t broken sufficient bones,
To make me forget completely

Every time I remember,
I die at your feet again and again